エゴママ - i want to have a machina heart -
22 June 2030 @ 10:29 pm
THESE ARE A FEW OF MY FAVOURITE THINGS  
WIR HÄTTEN EINEN TRAUM VOLLBRACHT
“It’s the Longing that ultimately undoes you. When it finds you, it gnaws at your bones and tugs at your chest. It fills you up inside like rot and makes you dream dreams and it drowns you. The Longing keeps you in bed, clutching at your sheets while the world goes on outside. It smells like old leaves and cigarette smoke, mixed with the scent of far-off places you will hear of, but never see. It’s the gloss on a lover’s lips the moment you realize you will never kiss those lips again. It is the bittersweet, unrequited love of creation and it will break your heart again and again and again. If you know the Longing the way I do, then these words are redundant. We understand each other perfectly, you and I.”

― Matthew Sturges, House of Mystery, Volume 1: Room and Boredom



( GIMME MORE, GIMME MORE! WAS IT LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT? )
 
 
MOOD: okay
 
 
エゴママ - i want to have a machina heart -
31 October 2026 @ 11:59 pm
FANGIRLYEAR 2026: OCTOBER EDITION  
read:
I Decided to Live as Me [Kim Suhyun]
When the Museum is Closed [Yagi Emi]
Chocking Back the Devil [Donna Lynch]
Linghun [Ai JIang]
all the fanfic! [heated rivalry, haikyuu]

listen:

play:
Genshin [Events, Archon Quest, Alyosha, Odette]

watch:
Law & Order Toronto [2x10-3x10]
Truth Be Told [Season 3]
The Deliverance
Katla [1x01-02]
Three Pines [Season 1]
Event Horizon
Towards Zero [Miniseries]
The Watcher [Complete]
Persuasion [2007]
Tags:
 
 
MOOD: indescribable
 
 
エゴママ - i want to have a machina heart -
30 September 2026 @ 11:59 pm
FANGIRLYEAR 2026: SEPTEMBER EDITION  
read:
All the Lovers in the Night [Kawakami Mieko]
The Guy She was Interested in Wasn't a Guy at All Vol. 1-3 [Arai Sumiko]
I Decided to Live as Me [Kim Suhyun]
When the Museum is Closed [Yagi Emi]
Chocking Back the Devil [Donna Lynch]

all the fanfic! [heated rivalry, haikyuu]

listen:

play:
Genshin [Events, Archon Quest, Alyosha, Odette]


watch:
Behind Her Eyes [1-5]
Truth Be Told [Season 1]
Tags:
 
 
MOOD: busy
 
 
エゴママ - i want to have a machina heart -
31 August 2026 @ 11:59 pm
FANGIRLYEAR 2026: AUGUST EDITION  
read:
Yaga [Kat Sandler]
About a Place in the Kinki Region [Sesuji]
Strange Houses [Uketsu]
A Bit Much [Lyndsay Rush]
Witch Hat Atelier Vol 08 [Shirahama Kamome]
Poems from the Attic [Morgan Nikola-Wren]
10 Dance [Inoue Satoh]
Kizuna Vol 1-3 [Kdoaka Kazuma]
No Normal [G. Willow Wilson]
all the fanfic! [heated rivalry, dragon age]

listen:

play:
Genshin [Events, Archon Quest, SNEZHNAYA!! Alyosha, Odette]
Adventures of Elliot

watch:
The Descent
Noroi
Tags:
 
 
MOOD: calm
 
 
エゴママ - i want to have a machina heart -
31 July 2026 @ 11:59 pm
FANGIRLYEAR 2026: JULY EDITION  
read:
Witch Hat Atelier Vol 6-7 [Shirahama Kamome]
Fence, Vol. 7: Challengers [C.S. Pacat, Johanna the Mad]
all the fanfic! [heated rivalry, dragon age]

listen:

play:
Genshin [Events, Archon Quest, Prune, Lohen]

watch:
Widow's Bay [1x02-06]
Obsession
It's What's Inside
Tags:
 
 
MOOD: artistic
TUNE: Stardew Valley Playthrough Video
 
 
エゴママ - i want to have a machina heart -
30 June 2026 @ 11:59 pm
FANGIRLYEAR 2026: JUNE EDITION  
read:
Witch Hat Atelier Vol 1- 5 [Shirahama Kamome]
Wolf at the Door [Charlie Adhara]
The Wolf at Bay [Charlie Adhara]
Thrown to the Wolves [Charlie Adhara]
Wolf in Sheep's Clothing [Charlie Adhara]
all the fanfic! [heated rivalry, dragon age]

listen:

play:
Genshin [Events, Archon Quest, Nicole, Prune, Lohen]

watch:
Midwich Cuckoos [Complete]
Hokum
The Nun 1-2
Pet Sematary
Witch Hat Atelier [2-5]
Widow's Bay [1x01]
Tags:
 
 
TUNE: Eve feat. suis from Yorushika - Kaze no Anthem
 
 
エゴママ - i want to have a machina heart -
31 May 2026 @ 11:59 pm
FANGIRLYEAR 2026: MAY EDITION  
read:
Poems from the Attic [Morgan Nikola-Wren]
Hallowed Be Thy Name [Morgan Dante]
Crimson Spell Vol 1-3 [Yamano Ayane]
Wolf at the Door [Charlie Adhara]
Trad Wife [Saratoga Schaefer]
all the fanfic! [heated rivalry]

listen:

play:
Genshin [Events, Archon Quest, Varka, Nicole, Prune]

watch:
28 Years Later: The Bone Temple
Scarpetta [1-2]
Valhalla Murders [1-2]
Something Very Bad is Going to Happen [1-2]
Witch Hat Atelier [1]
Tags:
 
 
TUNE: Ado - Aiaiai
MOOD: weird
 
 
エゴママ - i want to have a machina heart -
30 April 2026 @ 11:59 pm
FANGIRLYEAR 2026: APRIL EDITION  
read:
Poems from the Attic [Morgan Nikola-Wren]
Hallowed Be Thy Name [Morgan Dante]
I'll Have What He's Having [Adib Khorram]
all the fanfic! [heated rivalry]

listen:

play:
Genshin [Events, Archon Quest, Illuga, Varka]

watch:
The Pitt [2x09-15]
Tags:
 
 
MOOD: artistic
 
 
エゴママ - i want to have a machina heart -
31 March 2026 @ 11:59 pm
FANGIRLYEAR 2026: MARCH EDITION  
read:
Night Life [Alba V. Sarria]
Poems from the Attic [Morgan Nikola-Wren]
The Only Good Indians [Stephen Graham Jones]
Hallowed Be Thy Name [Morgan Dante]
all the fanfic! [heated rivalry]

listen:

play:
Genshin [Events, Archon Quest, Columbina, Illuga, Varka]
Fields of Mistiria

watch:
Love is Blind
Quiet Please [Complete]
Isekai no Sata wa Shachiku Shidai [Season 1]
Ikoku Nikki [Season 1]
Yellowjackets [2x01-04]
Tags:
 
 
TUNE: Chloe Qisha - Modern Romance
MOOD: cold
 
 
エゴママ - i want to have a machina heart -
28 February 2026 @ 11:59 pm
FANGIRLYEAR 2026: FEBRUARY EDITION  
read:
Night Life [Alba V. Sarria]
Cage of the Moon [Noah Stoffers]
all the fanfic! [heated rivalry]

listen:

play:
Genshin [Events, Archon Quest, Durin, Columbina, Illuga]
Fields of Mistiria

watch:
Midsomar
Hereditary
The Pitt [Season 1, 2x01-08]
Sekaiichi Hatsukoi: Yokozawa Takafumi no Baai
Heated Rivalry [Season 1]
Weapons
Agents of Mystery [2x01-03]
Tags:
 
 
MOOD: anxious
TUNE: Nell Mescal - Middle Man
 
 
エゴママ - i want to have a machina heart -
31 January 2026 @ 11:59 pm
FANGIRLYEAR 2026: JANUARY EDITION  
read:
Some Are Always Hungry [Jihyun Yun]
Elegies of Rotting Stars [Tiffany Morris]
Cage of the Moon [Noah Stoffers]
all the fanfic! [heated rivalry]

listen:
Silt Verses [1x09-12]

play:
Genshin [Events, Archon Quest, Durin, Columbina]
Octopath Traveler [Chapter 4: Therion, Ophilia, Cyrus]

watch:
Things Heard and Seen
A Cure for Wellness
Heated Rivalry [Season 1]
A Quiet Place
A Quiet Place 2
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MOOD: calm
TUNE: Centimilimental - Fuyu no Hanashi
 
 
エゴママ - i want to have a machina heart -
31 December 2025 @ 11:59 pm
FANGIRLYEAR 2025: DECEMBER EDITION  
read:
Elegies of Rotting Stars [Tiffany Morris]
Heated Rivalry [Rachel Reid]
Elena Knows [Claudia Piñeiro, Frances Riddle]
all the fanfic! [dragon age: viperquin]

listen:
Silt Verses [1x09-12]

play:
Genshin [Events, Archon Quest, Aino, Nefer, Durin]
Octopath Traveler [Chapter 4]
Octopath Traveler Zero [50%ish]
The Willowmist Emporium of Antiques and Curiosities [Demo]
Scarlet Hollow
Goodbye, Sweet Carole

watch:
Ludwig
Heated Rivalry [Season 1]
Knives Out: Dead Man Walking
Count of Monte Christo
Pluribus [1x01-08]
The Great [1x01]
10 Dance
Tags:
 
 
TUNE: Sade - The Sweetest Taboo
MOOD: contemplative
 
 
エゴママ - i want to have a machina heart -
30 November 2025 @ 11:59 pm
FANGIRLYEAR 2025: NOVEMBER EDITION  
read:
Doukyusei: Home [Nakamura Atsumiko]
H.P. Lovecraft: Der leuchtende Trapezoeder [Tanabe Gou]
H.P. Lovecraft: Die Farbe aus dem All [Tanabe Gou]
H.P. Lovecraft: At the Mountains of Madness, Volume 1 [Tanabe Gou]
H.P. Lovecraft: At the Mountains of Madness, Volume 2 [Tanabe Gou]
H.P. Lovecraft: The Call of Cthulhu [Tanabe Gou]
The Me You Love in the Dark {Skottie Young, Jorge Corona]
Elegies of Rotting Stars [Tiffany Morris]
all the fanfic! [dragon age: viperquin]

listen:
Silt Verses [1x05-08]

play:
Genshin [Events, Archon Quest, Lauma, Flins, Aino, Nefer]
Fields of Mistiria
Octopath Traveller [chapter 3, Alfyn, Tressa and Primrose chapter 4]

watch:
The Handmaid's Tale [Season 2-6]
Tags:
 
 
TUNE: Silt Verses
MOOD: blank
 
 
エゴママ - i want to have a machina heart -
31 October 2025 @ 11:59 pm
FANGIRLYEAR 2025: OCTOBER EDITION  
read:
all the fanfic! [dragon age]

listen:
Silt Verses [1x01-04]

play:
Genshin [Events,Archon Quest, Inefa, Ifa, Lauma, Flins]
Fields of Mistiria
Yes, my liege
Octopath Traveler [Chapter 3-4 for everyone]


watch:
Untamed [Season 1]
Tags:
 
 
TUNE: hitsujibungaku - koe
 
 
エゴママ - i want to have a machina heart -
30 September 2025 @ 11:59 pm
FANGIRLYEAR 2025: SEPTEMBER EDITION  
read:
all the fanfic! [dragon age]

listen:
Silt Verses [1x01-04]

play:
Genshin [Events, Inefa, Ifa, Lauma]
This War of Mine

watch:
The Ultimatum France
Wayward {1x01-05]
Tags:
 
 
MOOD: cold
TUNE: 水曜日のカンパネラ - シャトーブリアン
 
 
エゴママ - i want to have a machina heart -
31 August 2025 @ 11:59 pm
FANGIRLYEAR 2025: AUGUST EDITION  
read:
Cult Following [J.W. Ocker]
Role Model [Rachel Reid]
The Long Game [Rachel Reid]
Tough Guy [Rachel Reid]
all the fanfic! [dragon age]

listen:

play:
Genshin [Events, Dahlia, Inefa, Ifa]
The Excavation of Hob's Barrow

watch:
The Silence of the Lambs
Hannibal
Heretic
The Red King [1x01-05]
Clarice [Season 1]
Red Dragon
The Lodge
The Presence
Tags:
 
 
MOOD: okay
TUNE: kocchi no kento - hai, yorokonde
 
 
エゴママ - i want to have a machina heart -
31 July 2025 @ 11:59 pm
FANGIRLYEAR 2025: JULY EDITION  
read:
all the fanfic! []

listen:


play:


watch:
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TUNE: YT
MOOD: groggy
 
 
エゴママ - i want to have a machina heart -
30 June 2025 @ 11:59 pm
FANGIRLYEAR 2025: JUNE EDITION  
read:
It Came from the Closet [Joe Vallese]
A White Rose in Bloom, Vol. 1-3 [Nakamura Atsumiko]
Strange Pictures [Uketsu]
May you have Delicious Meals [Takase Junko]
#DRCL Vol 1-2 [Sakamoto Shinichi]
Hunchback [Ichikawa Saou]
Cult Following [J.W. Ocker]
all the fanfic! [sangcheng, dragon age veilguard, star trek]

listen:

play:
Genshin Impact [Events, Dailies; Venti,]

watch:
And Just Like That [Season 1-2, 3x01-03]
Murderbot [1x01-05]
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エゴママ - i want to have a machina heart -
31 May 2025 @ 11:59 pm
FANGIRLYEAR 2025: MAY EDITION  
read:
You Should Be So Lucky [Cat Sebastian]
We Could Be So Good [Cat Sebastian]
Tommy Cabot Was Here [Cat Sebastian]
all the fanfic! [sangcheng, dragon age veilguard]

listen:
Friends at the Table Clapcast
Science Cops [??]

play:
Genshin Impact [Events, Dailies; Venti, Varesa]
Stardew Valley
Sims 4

watch:
The Four Seasons [Season 1]
Interview with the Vampire [Season 1 and 2]
Tags:
 
 
TUNE: Sarah Hester Ross - I'm Serving Cunt
 
 
エゴママ - i want to have a machina heart -
30 April 2025 @ 11:59 pm
FANGIRLYEAR 2025: APRIL EDITION  
read:
all the fanfic! [dragon age veilguard]

listen:
Friends at the Table Clapcast
Science Cops [??}
Seelenfänger [Staffel 1-5]

play:
Genshin Impact [Events, Dailies; Kachina, Varesa, Mizuki]
Stardew Valley

watch:
My Life is Murder [Season 1-3]
The Ultimatum South Africa [Season 1]
Tags:
 
 
MOOD: complacent