ナナコ [赤姫] - i want to have a machina heart -
22 June 2020 @ 10:29 pm
THESE ARE A FEW OF MY FAVOURITE THINGS  
WIR HÄTTEN EINEN TRAUM VOLLBRACHT
„...if you have never spent whole afternoons forgetting the world around you over a book, forgetting cold and hunger— if you have never wept bitter tears because a wonderful story has come to an end and you must take your leave of the characters with whom you have shared so many adventures, whom you have loved and admired, for whom you have hoped and feared, and without whose company life seems empty and meaningless - you probably won’t understand what Bastian did next.”
[Michael Ende, Neverending Story]



GIMME MORE, GIMME MORE! WAS IT LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT? )
 
 
mood: okay
 
 
ナナコ [赤姫] - i want to have a machina heart -
29 August 2011 @ 02:35 am
WASTE TO THE WORLD  
Cassie: Do you know what hurts most about a broken heart? Not being able to remember how you felt before... try and keep that feeling, because... if it goes... you'll never get it back.
Chris: What happens then?
Cassie: You lay waste to the world... and everything in it.
 
 
tune: Starship - We built this city
mood: thoughtful
 
 
ナナコ [赤姫] - i want to have a machina heart -
07 August 2011 @ 02:33 am
DER TEIL DEN ICH VERSTEH IST HOME IST NUNMAL WHERE YOUR HEART IS  
"You know that point in your life when you realize that the house that you grew up in isn't really your home anymore?
All of the sudden even though you have some place where you can put your stuff that idea of home is gone. [...]
You'll see when you move out it just sort of happens one day one day and it's just gone. And you can never get it back.
It's like you get homesick for a place that doesn't exist. I mean it's like this rite of passage, you know. You won't have this feeling again until you create a new idea of home for yourself, you know, for your kids, for the family you start, it's like a cycle or something.
I miss the idea of it.
Maybe that's all family really is. A group of people who miss the same imaginary place."
[Garden State]
 
 
mood: thoughtful
 
 
ナナコ [赤姫] - i want to have a machina heart -
04 February 2011 @ 11:56 pm
"I COULDN'T WOUND YOU IF I DROPPED YOU OFF A TOWER."  
Fandom: Chronicles of the Chrestomanci
Title: The Murder at Missel Hall
Author: Rosie_Rues
Pairing: Gen
Spoilers: The author doesn't warn, so I think there's no need for a spoiler warning
Summary:
"Well, I'm relieved at least," Christopher said blithely. "Lying to Flavian always makes me feel like I've kicked a puppy."
"I notice that doesn't stop you," said Millie, clutching her hat as the carriage bumped over a pothole. She was dressed in her smartest, and looked as little like an enchanter as it was possible to look.
"Duty over conscience, my dear," Christopher said loftily. "I must suffer for our cause."


Conrad's POV, his perspective on Christopher, Millie, Elizabeth and the others is most wonderful (I adore the way he talks about Christopher, ah &hearts!)
This one could be canon, wonderfully done! I adore it! The plot as much as the interactions between the characters (which are spot on! Christopher is insufferable, Millie is adorable and so on, I also loved reading more about Elizabeth and it's wonderful to see her falling in love) are wonderful, I loved every word of it. If you love DWJ's Chrestomanci series, you'll like this!
 
 
mood: loved
 
 
ナナコ [赤姫] - i want to have a machina heart -
10 July 2010 @ 12:02 am
STANDING IN THE WAY OF CONTROL  
Your hands are shaking now
You're short of breath
You got to get away
And start again

And someone said
"you are haiving a breakdown"
And don't you know that
You are best for the fall.

Im telling you that this is going to be your tragic time.
Stuck up in your private hand.
And best to do in this tragic world
And girl don't you make me watch you cry
You're going mental
And im feeling that you let go
'cause they said she said I said that you know.

You're having a breakdown!
You're having a breakdown!
And all things you ask in your prayers
are falling away now.
 
 
mood: apathetic
tune: Black Gold - Breakdown
 
 
ナナコ [赤姫] - i want to have a machina heart -
07 April 2010 @ 11:44 pm
WENN ICH DIE AUGEN SCHLIESSE, SEHE ICH DINGE, DIE ICH NICHT VERSTEHE  
NOTFALLS WERDE ICH FÜR IMMER WARTEN

Ich mache schon wieder eine liste
von all den dingen die mir fehlen,
ein plan B, ein fluchtweg, eine ahnung was du von mir erwartest,
was auch immer sie über mich sagen lass dir nicht erzähln.
(...)
Nichts ändert sich, nichts bewegt sich
ich drehe meine runden geh im kreis
und öffne alte wunden.
Ich falle auf die knie und krümme mich alls würd ich beten.
Geh im kreis nichts ändert sich nichts bewegt sich.
 
 
mood: numb
 
 
ナナコ [赤姫] - i want to have a machina heart -
07 April 2010 @ 11:20 pm
EMILY BRONTE: STURMHOEHE  
"Während ich einen Monat schönsten Wetters an der See verlebte, geriet ich in die Gesellschaft eines bezaubernden Geschöpfes. Einer wahren Göttin, in meinen Augen.
Solange sie mir keine Aufmerksamkeit schenkte.
Ich gab mir meiner Liebe nie mit Worten Ausdruck. Doch wenn Blicke sprechen können, hätte auch der ärgste Dummkopf erraten, dass ich bis über beide Ohren verliebt war.
Sie verstand mich schließlich und erwiderte meine Augensprache mit dem süßesten Blick, den man sich vorstellen kann. Und was tat ich? Ich gestehe es voller Scham:
Ich zog mich zu Eis erstarrt in mich selbst zurück wie eine Schnecke. Zog mich bei jedem Blick abgekühlter und weiter zurück - bis die arme Unschuld schließlich anfing ihren eigenen Sinnen zu misstrauen.
Durch diese merkwürdige Veranlagung bin ich in den Ruf vorsätzlicher Herzenskälte gekommen - wie unverdient kann nur ich allein ermessen."


via [personal profile] lir
 
 
mood: blank
tune: Laputa OST - Tenkuu no shiro laputa
 
 
ナナコ [赤姫] - i want to have a machina heart -
15 March 2010 @ 11:25 pm
YOU SOFT AND ONLY, YOU LOST AND LONELY  
"You know you've read a good book when you turn the last page and feel a little as if you have lost a friend."
[Paul Sweeney]
 
 
mood: cheerful
tune: Katie Melua - Just Like Heaven
 
 
ナナコ [赤姫] - i want to have a machina heart -
08 March 2010 @ 03:00 am
BRILLIANT! I LAUGHED AND LAUGHED AND...  
Fandom: Hikaru no Go
Title: The Art of New Games
Author: Mirabella
Pairing: Hikaru/Akira
Rating: PG-13
Spoilers: The author doesn't warn, so I think there's no need for a spoiler warning.
Status: Oneshot
Summary: Touya really doesn't think his clothes are all that bad. Shindou and photographers disagree. Touya wouldn't really care, except that there are advantages to humoring Shindou once in a while.

By the time the interview has sputtered to a halt, however, he's feeling rather like there is Go and there is People Who Do Not Play Go, and maybe it's not a good idea to try to explain the one to the other. At least the photographer seems happy. Maybe the article will just have a lot of pictures and a brief mention of Shindou's imaginary snowboarding.
 
 
mood: amused
 
 
ナナコ [赤姫] - i want to have a machina heart -
20 February 2010 @ 12:07 am
INVICTUS  
Seen at V's ([profile] bonsai_dreams)

If you see this, post a poem in your own LJ.

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds and shall find me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.


William Ernest Henley
 
 
mood: awed
 
 
ナナコ [赤姫] - i want to have a machina heart -
08 February 2010 @ 11:36 pm
LIFT YOUR VOICES LOUD AND CLEARLY  
Do you remember
When we thought we were immortal
And the games we played always had a happy end
But in the game of life all the roses wither
And time writes its lines upon your face


[Vertical Horizon - Lines Upon Your Face]
 
 
tune: Vertical Horizon - Lines Upon Your Face
mood: sad
 
 
ナナコ [赤姫] - i want to have a machina heart -
04 February 2010 @ 10:44 pm
 
I myself am made entirely of flaws, stitched together with good intentions.

[Augusten Burroughs, Magical Thinking]
 
 
mood: calm
 
 
ナナコ [赤姫] - i want to have a machina heart -
04 September 2009 @ 01:02 am
MICHAEL ENDE: DIE UNENDLICHE GESCHICHTE  
Wer niemals ganze Nachmittage lang mit glühenden Ohren und verstrubbeltem Haar über einem Buch saß und las und las und die Welt um sich her vergaß, nicht mehr merkte, dass er hungrig wurde oder fror-
Wer niemals heimlich beim Schein der Taschenlampe unter der Bettdecke gelesen hat, weil Vater oder Mutter oder sonst irgendeine besorgte Person einem das Licht ausknipste mit der gutgemeinten Begründung, man müsse jetzt schlafen, da man doch morgen früh aus den Federn sollte-
Wer niemals offen oder im geheimen bitterliche Tränen vergossen hat, weil eine wunderbare Geschichte zu Ende ging und man Abschied nehmen musste von den Gestalten, mit denen man gemeinsam so viele Abenteuer erlebt hatte, die man liebte und bewunderte, um die man gebangt und für die man gehofft hatte, und ohne deren Gesellschaft einem das Leben leer und sinnlos schien-
Wer nichts von alledem aus eigener Erfahrung kennt, nun, der wird wahrscheinlich nicht begreifen können, was Bastian jetzt tat.
 
 
tune: Daft Punk - Digital Love
 
 
ナナコ [赤姫] - i want to have a machina heart -
04 September 2009 @ 01:00 am
NEIL GAIMAN: SANDMAN  
'I am a dire wolf, preystalking lethal prowler', Chronozon says.
'I am a hunter, horse-mounted, wolf-stabbing', Morpheus replies.
'I am a horse-fly, horse-stinging, hunter-throwing.'
'I am a spider, fly-consuming, eight legged.'
'I am a snake, spider-devouring, poison-toothed.'
'I am an ox, snake-crushing, heavy-footed.'
'I am an anthrax, butcher-bacterium, life-destoying.'
'I am a world, space-floating, life-nurturing.'
'I am a nova, all-exploding, planet-cremating.'
'I am the Universe - all things encompassing, all life embracing.'
'I am anti-life, the beast of judgement. I am the dark at the end of everything. The end of universes, gods, worlds... of everything. And what will you be then, Dreamlord?'
'I am hope.'
 
 
tune: Daft Punk - Aerodynamic
 
 
ナナコ [赤姫] - i want to have a machina heart -
24 August 2009 @ 02:49 am
REC-A-DEE-DOO-DA REC-A-DEE-YAY, MY OH MY WHAT A WONDERFUL FIC  
Fore these two you have to thank, [personal profile] resa, because I have to thank her for 'em. ♥

Fandom: Star Trek Reboot
Title: Whore
Author: [personal profile] igrockspock
Character/Pairing: Gaila
Rating: PG-13
Spoilers: None. (Not really.)
Status: finished oneshot
Summary: Gaila hates the word 'whore.' Luckily, so does someone else.

Lovely, lovely, lovely character piece. I can't say any more because that would spoil the fun of reading this short but brilliant ficlet. I fell in love with Gaila.

Fandom: Star Trek Reboot
Title: Course Correction
Author: [personal profile] igrockspock
Character/Pairing: Gaila/Sulu
Rating: PG-13
Spoilers: None. (Not really.)
Status: finished oneshot
Summary: Gaila hard and cynical, unwilling to trust. The person I imagine she was not long after her escape.

Oh, just continuing the Gaila love here, really. This is as faboulous as the first one but with much more - as resa called it "Orion politics" - and more insight into Gaila's character aswell as her past. And Sulu is a a proper - charming - gentleman.
 
 
ナナコ [赤姫] - i want to have a machina heart -
19 August 2009 @ 12:26 am
 
“It’s about . . . It’s about . . .” Scorpius paused. How could he even begin to explain what it was about? It was about everything he’d ever thought or hoped or dreamed or imagined. It was about friendship and courage and loyalty. But it was also about quiet things that, until then, he’d thought only he alone had felt. Things like loneliness and longing and a kind of exulting joy that sometimes licked at the edges of his consciousness with the caress of a flame.
(...)
“I know it’s made-up,” he said fiercely. “But that doesn’t mean it’s not real. To me.”

[Quote from some really amazing HP fanfiction. Found somewhere at HD Holidays.]
 
 
tune: Ryan Calhoun - Who we are
 
 
ナナコ [赤姫] - i want to have a machina heart -
27 July 2009 @ 12:43 pm
ZING WENT THE STRINGS OF MY HEART  
Eugene: [Opening narration] The speed of light is 299,792,458 metres per second. Pain travels through the body at 350 feet per second. Even a sneeze can reach a hundred miles per hour. And as for life? Well... that just bloody whizzes by.

Eugene: The average life is full of near misses and absolute hits, of great love and small disasters. It's made up of banana milkshakes, loft insulation, and random shoes. It's dead ordinary and truly truly amazing. What you've got to realise is it's all here now. So breathe deep and swallow it whole because take it from me, life just whizzes by.
 
 
tune: Martine McCutcheon - Zing went the strings of my heart
 
 
ナナコ [赤姫] - i want to have a machina heart -
05 July 2009 @ 11:47 pm
 
Most of you have been where I am tonight. The crash site of unrequited love. You ask yourself, How did I get here? What was it about? Was it her smile? Was it the way she crossed her legs, the turn of her ankle, the poignant vulnerability of her slender wrists? What are these elusive and ephemeral things that ignite passion in the human heart? That's an age-old question. It's perfect food for thought on a bright midsummer's night.


Martin Sage and Sybil Adelman, Northern Exposure, The Bumpy Road to Love, 1991
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ナナコ [赤姫] - i want to have a machina heart -
03 June 2009 @ 10:37 pm
THIS ONE IS FOR YOU, AND ONLY YOU  
Fandom: Star Trek Reboot
Title: Breaking Points
Author: Ragdoll / Keshka
Pairing: Kirk/Spock
Rating: PG-13 - NC17
Spoilers: For the movie, obviously and the author said that she made some references to TOS but in a way that 'for people who have seen TOS, the context will be enjoyable, but for those that haven't, it shouldn't detract any understanding from the story.' And I think that's true so far :)
Status: finished
Summary: When the Enterprise is asked to transport Vulcan colonists to their new home, Spock Prime comes with them. His presence changes everything – even the things Jim isn’t sure he wants to change.

I loved this and I can't wait for more (which is to come soon). I liked the style and loved the characterisations. Spot on and in character. And there's also a lot of humour to boot. The story is mostly told from Kirk's point of view (although it's not a first-person narrator) and it's really gorgeous. I also like the author's style and her choice of words very much. This made me really giddy while reading it. I was dying because of the thrill and because I just couldn't get enough.

[And if you're still looking for more: Recs: Star Trek]
 
 
mood: giddy
tune: Muse - Map of the Problematique
 
 
ナナコ [赤姫] - i want to have a machina heart -
03 June 2009 @ 11:37 am
 
Fandom: Star Trek Reboot
Title: a love so much refined
Author: [profile] tasheila
Pairing: Kirk/Spock, Sarek/Amanda
Rating: PG
Spoilers: For the movie I'd say.
Status: Oneshot
Summary: a promt from [profile] st_xi_kink round two:
Spock/Kirk, Sarek + outsider pov: Sarek watches his son and Kirk together and is reminded of his relationship with his wife - and how deep humans can love - and how humbling it is to be the recipient of such emotions.

Beautifully done! I can't say much or I'd give the best parts away. Believe me when I say that this is one of the most beautiful and melancholy fics I've read so far for the STR fandom.